41 — My First Time Walking Out of A Relationship

It happened through a dating app — love at first swipe……

I thought it was serendipity.

But it soon turned into mockery.

After a time of bliss, his moods turned as inconsistent and unpredictable as the weather of my country — rain in several areas of the late afternoon and early evening.

I was at his whims.

I was blindfolded and on a rollercoaster, I finally realised. Blindfolded because I didn’t even know that I was on a roller coaster.

When the ups came, it was out of nowhere, and I accepted it gratefully.

But then the downs. The steep plunges down. No shouting on the down — you’re crazy and irrational, you have a psychological problem.

First my furniture — was that testing the water of how submissive I was?

Then my body. The marking. I was never allowed to forget for even a minute that I was in your control.

Your timing, not mine.

Your whims, your rules — all justified.

It was hard for me to leave you.

But I did.

You are my lesson in life.

And I hope that I am yours — the sisterhood deserves better men.